Dear Cool Smurf,
first of all, I want to let you know that you are not alone. I understand you very well, since I have been suffering from depression ever since I was twelve. There were times then I felt all alone and seeked for someone whom I could talk to. When I was with my family or with my then so-called "friends" however, I felt as they were not listening to any of my problems. Then I prefered loneliness. Sometime later, I realized that these friends were nothing but big pretenders, who were nothing but self-serving. Around the same time, I was bullied by most classmates, who thought I was just strange, for I wasn't found of brands and was interested in other things than they were. Around the same time I happened to meet Manni. We were introduced by a person, we both knew and suddenly things got better. Despite we were divided by age and gender, we came along very well, just as if we had known each other
for years. And then I was even all beaten up in Italy by some of my classmates, thinking about commiting suicide, he spent hours on the phone and listened to what I was saying and moreover cheered me up.
Sometime later, he told me that he went through deprission after his wife had died of cancer and after his daughter had commited suicide and that he didn't want to loose me as well.
Half a year later, Manni and me were not only friends, but dad and daughter.
Even later, I was happy to have found... this place!!! As Hilary pointed out, I never ever thought that a community would have so many wonderful people around and that we not only talking, but showing how much we care for each other. (I love you guys!!!
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Every now and then, I do certainly feel depressed, but not as much as in the old days. Hang on Cool, you are not alone. We are there for you and if you need someone, just feel free to pm.
Love xxx,
Dom
P.S. My story is very long and will be posted soon.